#but garbage.is still...bad for you

[maryaandmorevna]

How tf do people eat healthy? How do you see a kale or spinach and be like...yes yum. 🥲🥲🥲🥲 how do you enjoy a smoothie when you can enjoy bacon rosti from mcdonalds instead and for less effort?

[dragonnest-art]

Status Update

Hey guys! Sorry about the last couple weeks, but I’m back up and doing art. As for why that happened, well, you can read if you want. I just want you to know that things are going to start going back to normal uploads again.

So I usually get tired after making the Fabled Foes packs. This is not a secret. These things take a lot of work, they are bigger than the other packs, and I try to keep things going fast enough to I can finish it, take a week off, and get onto another pack. Every three or so Foe packs, I get really tired by the end of them more than I usually do. That’s what happened here but it was a lot worst this time. I don’t think it was just the pack itself though. I don’t necessarily want to talk about my financial situation. It doesn’t seem right to, but I have to explain a couple things about it so you guys understand why I’m so stressed. I don’t really have a proper way to get an income. Yes, I sell Token Packs on Roll20, but it’s not that helpful. It’d be a nice side thing to have to so I can get and play video games or basically splurg on myself every once in a while without worrying about every other useless expense people have to pay to keep their lives going. Thing is, I don’t have any other way to get cash other than my commissions and my Patreon and I don’t get a lot of money from those either. It’s frustrating. I try, and try, and try, but no matter what, NO ONE is interested in hiring me. I’m not even talking about getting a job as an artist mind you. I’m talking about a normal one! Working as a secretary, moving boxes in the back, helping folks find items at the store - ANYTHING! Thing is, I get really stressed from social interactions. That’s for a lot of reasons, but at the end of the day, it comes down to me getting upset and spending like an hour crying when people are mean or rude. I hate that. I know I’d get thrown out of a job as soon as my employer SAW that garbage coming from me. Thing is, that’s just a part of who I am, and I can’t change that. So a lot less jobs are available to me. I know I can’t make art as a living. I’m not some great comic author or a fantastic illustrator, or someone who can make art in the most perfect and brilliant way. I don’t want to be perfect because perfection is a goal no one can reach. It’s so meaningless, it might as well be garbage.I also can’t hope and pray that someone likes my stuff enough to support me. I’d like that, but even though I advertise myself, I shove myself out there, it’s all luck. That’s what it comes down to. And no one gives a single damn. I can’t make them give a damn by just being me. I can’t please an employer or the people on the web. So, I’m not going to try. I rather get by by being me. But that’s not easy, and that stuff still had a major effect on me and my health. I couldn’t do anything for the last couple weeks without being UNREASONABLY mad and frustrated. I love doing art, and I couldn’t even do that because all I felt after picking up a pencil was anger. I’ve just been waiting all this time to cool off and let that anger subside. Pushing myself to work through it would have made everything worse and I’m glad I didn’t. Since the Fabled Foe Packs are almost done, I might not have this problem as often any more.If I do though? It might not be as bad. Maybe I’ll make it some where some day. If I don’t, I hope I can and will still make you guys smile. It’s the greatest thing I can give to anyone else, and that’s what I want be able to make them happy.